Today I've shed tears over watching you take your first steps, comforting your future broken hearts, and watching your daddy walk you down the aisle some day. You're only seven weeks old but I feel like these milestones are approaching quickly. I'm trying to savor every sleepy smile and all the times you contently snuggle up on my chest. I know you wont always be my baby, but I hope and pray that these months, and years, imprint themselves on your memory and that you'll come to know how deeply I love you. Maybe someday, when you're a mother, you'll understand.
I pray for you, baby girl. I pray that you grow to know and love the Lord. I pray that you become a woman with a meek and gentle spirit, a woman who is eager to serve those around her. I pray that you will reject the wavering notions of the world and place your convictions firmly on the truth of the scriptures. But, most of all, I pray that God would mold me into the mother you need me to be.
You're so small and needy right now. I selfishly hope that you never grow up and that you'll always fall asleep in my arms. This is where you're safest. This is where I can protect you from any danger. But, I know I wont always be able to protect you. Someday you're going to grow up and face your first heartbreak. I won't always be able to comfort you, but know that I will always wish I was there.
Little one, I can't help but dwell on what you're future will look like. It's a hard world, but a few things will build you up and help sustain you through the storms.
1. In all seasons rest and rely on the Lord.
2. Find a man who will sacrifice for you and encourage you. Find a man like your daddy.
3. Surround yourself with people who will encourage you and challenge you to be a stronger christian.
My precious Jane Eiligh, know that I love you. You will always be my first born, the one that made me a mommy. You will always hold a very special place in my heart. Be gentle, but strong.