So you're standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning
I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying
It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around
Don't even know which way is up, you just keep spinning down, 'round, down…
I feel totally defeated tonight. It has been months of battling health problems and emotional mood swings, and they have left me exhausted. The physical issues persist even though I have tried for years to figure out why I have them. My emotional challenges continue to haunt me. And tonight I am tired of all of it. I feel like my legs were shot from beneath me. I feel defeated.
Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain
Tonight God teaches me His sovereignty. Those legs that were blown out from underneath me are my legs of pride founded on my feet of faithlessness. God continues to show me that my greatest weakness is my lack of faith. I cling to the things of the earth in hopes that I will find something that might give me a small feeling of stability. I rest everything on fickle humans. And in my desperation I ignore the abundance of blessings God has given me and the security I have in Him.
God has called me to very specific things. And the more I try to ignore it, the more God forces those things to be the only stable parts of my life. I hive to focus on Him. And nothing else that may take away from Him. Multiple things in the past few days have shown just how much of my selfish desires go directly against what God has planned for my life. I need to be content.
God is the only place where I can find true and lasting contentment. And all of those things that are hardest for me become my greatest challenges because I continue to be willfully blind.
God has called me to very specific things. And the more I try to ignore it, the more God forces those things to be the only stable parts of my life. I hive to focus on Him. And nothing else that may take away from Him. Multiple things in the past few days have shown just how much of my selfish desires go directly against what God has planned for my life. I need to be content.
God is the only place where I can find true and lasting contentment. And all of those things that are hardest for me become my greatest challenges because I continue to be willfully blind.
Oh God, help me live a life for and by You. Quench my pride. Make me humble. Show me that all god things will come to those who wait. Please make me content in you.